Last week was the worst week of my entire life.... My father just died last week and I wasn't there with him.... I don't know how to handle a sudden loss when it's your own parent... What sucks even more is when you talked with him the night that was going to be there last night in the world... I only got to talk to him for 10 minutes. And when he said he loved me... I said it in a half hearted way... Like when your busy with something... I wish I could turn back the time and said it in a better way.
Then on Thrusday I went to his viewing. It sucked because it's tough seeing the man that you have known forever and was your own dad gone from your life. My own future childern will never get see their own grandfather... At his funeral it was great. I know he would be proud of me... I was the only one who talked at his funeral.. I was happy that he got military honors... The marine veterans came and fired for his funeral.... He would like that... I hate this new year... Everyone I know and care about is having problems or dying...